In A Subjunctive Mood (or Long Live The Drama Queen)

subjunctive mood

So I’ve decided I’m going to try to post something every day. Well, every weekday. Why? I don’t know; it seemed like a good idea at the time. I probably wouldn’t if I were the kind of person who thought things through. The truth is the last thing I need is more work. I’ve got twenty-five thousand words to write for one book and another fifty-thousand words to write for my half-finished novel. All the while looking for a job that will actually pay me money, leave me time to write, and let me have some semblance of a life. Heaven forbid that my life should be easy. I wish I were rich, because that would solve a lot of my problems.

Meanwhile, the Internet is calling me. I have to schedule time just to read my email and catchup on Twitter. I should probably do more on Facebook and Google+, but I like to sleep occasionally. Be that as it may, social media is an important part of branding yourself. Still, I can be a bit of a perfectionist. If it feels like work, I’m probably over-thinking it again. I tend to do that a lot. Maybe I should take baby steps and start a Tumbler. I wish I were more organized, but I can never find the time.

Honestly, I could use more structure on my life. Discipline was never my strong suit. Left to my own devices, my brain will wander off into fantasy for hours at a time. And while that is entertaining to me, it is ultimately not very productive. Eventually, I just have to sit myself down and say, “It’s important that you be more focused.” I should probably stop referring to myself in the second person as well. Anyway, the point is I have always found excuses not to do the things I wanted to do. I need to stop listening to the voices that tell me to doubt my own abilities, as if they were right. I wish I were brave, because the only thing that’s stopping me is me.

Also, I know that, come what may, life goes on.

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Crazed recluse and sociophobe who has taken up writing after failing at everything else. Send pizza.

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9 comments on “In A Subjunctive Mood (or Long Live The Drama Queen)
  1. deepa says:

    I ‘m sure most of us would wish to be more organised 🙂 Thanks for the pingback!

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  2. Thanks for the mention! 😮 Much appreciated!

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  3. pinkagendist says:

    It’s a good idea. Not only does it structure life more but it’s also a repository. You get to put it all out there and move on.

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  4. Sometimes I really wished that wishing could do all I wanted. Lovely post. I also wish I were… http://teeceecounsel.wordpress.com/2012/11/01/poem-i-wish-i-were-wishing-all-of-these/

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